Thursday, March 02, 2006

Several things

I was in charge of dinner for 80 women tonight at church. I seriously love doing stuff like that. I think I want to be a caterer when I grow up. It went well. More details (and pictures) soon.

Tomorrow we're leaving to Utah. I'm going up again in a couple weeks but my Dad isn't doing well and my mom suggested that we come have a quieter visit before coming up with my aunt and cousins. I've been praying for guidence whether or not to go now or wait- I guess my mom calling and asking us to come was about as clear an answer that I could get.

Through this whole ordeal my Dad has had a great outlook. Life is always good, he feels great ect. The eternal optimist. This week he told my mom that he's ready to die, that he's now praying for relief. I feel like all that has kept him alive these last four years has been his faith and shear will. He wasn't ready to go so he didn't. Of course that doesn't mean that he'll die this week or even this month- but it's a huge shift. As much as I am ready for this, I'm still not ready. I know it's best for him- that he's done all he can do here- but it's still hard to wrap my brain around the fact that he'll still not be 'here' anymore.

I don't know how I feel about that.

9 comments:

Lee said...

Amber, I am so sorry you are having to deal with this. You and your family are in my prayers. ((hugs))

bon said...

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if you are interested in some comic relief you can come over to my house. Or if you want to talk... email me and I'll give you my address or phone #.

bon.mamaATgmailDOTcom

Rachelle said...

Hugs to you Amber! What a hard thing to deal with it. I cannot imagine it happening to one of my parents. I know it would be devestating. Prayers to you and your family during this time!

Linsey said...

Amber I am glad that dinner went well!

I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. That is hard. I would be torn too... Hugs for you, and prayers.

Amber said...

Thanks everyone. Sorry to be such a downer.

Bon- thanks for the offer. We're just making a quick trip this time- but we're up that way quite frequently and I'd love to meet IRL sometime.

Alissa said...

big ugly sobs and huge wet tears for you ambre.

Becky said...

Sorry your dad is not doing well. I hope your trip goes well.

Anonymous said...

Please give your mom and dad a big hug and kiss for me. You know I love you all. There is so little someone can do in a time like this except pray and send lots of virtual hugs until we can see each other again. Love ya cuz
Maria

Hope said...

I am curious about how your visit went and what is going on with your dad. Do I need to talk to Michael some more to prepare him? We've already talked about how things won't be the same and he knows, but I am worried about him being upset. He's really tender emotionally sometimes.

I also wonder if we need to talk more about how our visit will go, schedule-wise so I know if I need to reserve a car.